It’s been a busy week so I thought I’d post a journal entry I wrote in 2007. Sort of travelling back into time and seeing what was on my mind then. Enjoy.
Tonight was a beautiful night. I spent the end of my night outside on my parents back porch. It was one of those crisp, cool winter nights that I love. The sky was clear with the millions of stars surrounding the full moon. I loved it. I need to back track a little though.
This week has been hard for me. I’ve been in a sort of spiritual funk you might say. I’ve been neglecting reading my bible and my quiet time with God has been non-existant. I take all the blame for this too, I’ve made excuses for myself and my actions which as of late have been less than Christ like. It really hit me today. In the rush and hub-bub( thats right, I used that word, whether it is a word or not!) of the Christmas season I finally had enough. I needed to do something.
So I read my bible then headed outside for some alone time. God spoke to me for the first time in what felt like and eternity. What I heard was a mixture. I see God act in my life in different roles. For instance I see God act in my life as a protecter, a father, a friend. I know he acts in all these ways but at times certain ones seem to stick out. Tonight I heard the father, the stern father warning me that if I wanted to continue down the path I was headed he would let me but that he was concerned more with my holiness than my happiness and he wouldn’t have a problem disciplining me. Next came another side of the father, the kind that picks me up and carries me. Looking at the moon tonight I thought of the star that lead those men over 2000 years ago to Jesus. I thought about how Mary held Jesus in her arms and how he now holds me in his arms telling me that he still loved me and that nothing would change that. Then the final side of my father appeared tonight telling me that it was time to act like a man. I’m not a little kid anymore and I shouldn’t act like one. I’m called to emulate him, its time that I did. Its time to put off childish things. This new year hopefully I will.
On this still, silent night God reminded me that when everything goes away. When the holidays and jobs and school. When the problems and things of this universe pass away I’m left with God. A God who loves me. I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a wondeful year. I love you all and you have been great friends to me.
- 1 year ago
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